My [2] Cents - Moment of Weakness - Playlist [1]
‘blackberry molasses
One of the things that never change…
You got to keep pushin’ on
The sun don’t rain all the time
there ‘s gonna be some heartache and pain’
It has been officially 1 month since my last post and I haven’t been able to get anything down on this blog. So much has happened in this past month and my emotions have left me incapable to collect my thoughts.
The whole point of developing this blog was to put together all that embody me all in one place.
My likes…dislikes…interest….inspirations….
Butonly recently it always seems that a case of writer’s block washes over me, especially during those times I want to rid myself of all my afflictions so badly.
..where has all my creativity gone to? I lost that passion that led me to writing, to even starting up this blog…the chance to get all my feelings down and to be able to truly express myself to the fullest is s l o w l y f a d i n g away.
But that is the least of my worries right now…other issues are plaguing my mind as of late…
Like the matters of my heart…
I have the love of a beautiful woman but I am ‘scared petrified’ to fully give my all to her….I find myself wondering if it is better to just let go now…before I invest any more of me into ‘us’…I am THAT scared of love….let me rephrase that, I am THAT scared of not being loved in return…..
Scars from previous experiences have left me a little hesitant to leaving myself that vulnerable…..
But she doesn’t help with the words she says…and the way her words plays
One of the things that never change…
You got to keep pushin’ on
The sun don’t rain all the time
there ‘s gonna be some heartache and pain’
It has been officially 1 month since my last post and I haven’t been able to get anything down on this blog. So much has happened in this past month and my emotions have left me incapable to collect my thoughts.
The whole point of developing this blog was to put together all that embody me all in one place.
My likes…dislikes…interest….inspirations….
But
..where has all my creativity gone to? I lost that passion that led me to writing, to even starting up this blog…the chance to get all my feelings down and to be able to truly express myself to the fullest is s l o w l y f a d i n g away.
But that is the least of my worries right now…other issues are plaguing my mind as of late…
Like the matters of my heart…
I have the love of a beautiful woman but I am ‘
Scars from previous experiences have left me a little hesitant to leaving myself that vulnerable…..
But she doesn’t help with the words she says…and the way her words plays
...unintentional mind games….
Please someone tell me….how can you love someone…want to marry someone….can see yourself live the rest of your life with someone….
Please someone tell me….how can you love someone…want to marry someone….can see yourself live the rest of your life with someone….
But…..
…regret
…under specific circumstances, succumb….
I don’t understand how his actions are irrelevant to you and me, while his love is still relevant within you…
I can already hear her telling me, ‘you should go and find someone else, who can treat you right and give you the world…’
She is being honest with me….and that is all I wanted…honesty….
Damn it is biting me in the a** right now….
So ‘where do we go from here’
Do I…
Learn to just accept the things as they are and continue to bask within our love, building towards our inevitable future of marital bliss…
Or…
Don’t put my all into it as much….don’t leave myself vulnerable…..and just plain let go…..
Shit….I would never think someone could have me like this again…..
But as always…
‘when it hurts so bad, why….’
‘Now back to your regular broadcast’
3 comments:
Hey! I just made a blogspot too! After so long, I've decided to express my thoughts in writing again, like I frequently did before. But it's private for now. No sharing. =P
I totally know what you mean about having writer's block and being creatively stumped. Don't worry, just let it flow.
As for the matters of your heart, no one can promise you which relationship will last. None are written in stone. But if you don't let go of your fears, you will never experience all the beautiful things about two connected souls. Your past is exactly that. It's not here and now. So... just let go and live. *violins playing*
1st time stoppin by:)
A guy once told me that if I dont allow myself to fall in love I wont evr truly be in love w/ sum1 else. I'm still strugglin with this but it is 100% true.
bitterness, numbness, payback or faith & rebirth...
those are the options
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